I guess all I want is... Hardin.
Hi Blog!
I haven't written in a while and to be honest, I haven't had a clue what to write or how to put my words to paper... I tried so many times but I couldn't.
Anyway today I'm feeling slightly more productive and like I want to discuss some things. One of these is my feeling that I will constantly be settling in life meaning I won't be happy. This is mostly in the area of romance and love but maybe slightly in my career path.
Let's start with a career, because it will take less time. As you know from my first post you know that I am planning on going to uni in September to do musical theatre but ultimately, in terms of the job I'm going to be a primary school teacher. All my teachers throughout my life said I would make a great teacher but said that I definitely have more potential. This never really bothered me- yeah it was annoying when they said it but I just brushed it off- somehow now I'm bothered by it and I always knew I had a dream scenario and a realistic one. My issue is they always say chase your dreams, so I'm worried if I never chase them I won't be happy. Also, I don't want my realistic option anymore. It feels empty. Like I'm just part of a society that doesn't care for the underpaid and the underprivileged. That's what realistic is... to be underpaid and spend years paying student loans and fitting into society's mold; getting married, having kids, and living the cycle everyone else does. Is it so wrong to want more? Am I being ungrateful for even asking this?
Right so the long bit... L-O-V-E. How do you find it? Is it always the person you want? Are you aware or does it sneak up on you? So many questions that at the age of 18 only some can answer. I want to answer them. I want to find this out... to experience my own personal love but what I want is too rare and unique. I mean like my expectations for a guy.
I'm about to go into build-a-bitch mode but here's what I want:
- Dark hair (preferably curly or wavy)
- Light eyes (either bright blue or a bright green-blue mix)
- Good bone structure(face)
- Muscly back
- Lean
- Tall (at least 5'11")
- Tattoos
- Rough around the edges
- Simple clothing such as just black jeans (blue occasionally but not often) and a black or white t-shirt every day, when it gets cold a leather jacket to be added. Also black boots or black converse (preferably high top)
- Piercings (preferably nose or lip and ear/s)
- Family trauma
- Jealous
- Overprotective
- Slept around
- I'm their first-ever love and the only person they are able to love
- Challenging/ challenges me
- The opposite from me
- Rocky relationship (constant heartbreak and repair)
- Persistence and belief in the relationship (when we argue he calls multiple times every day if we aren't together even if I don't answer, always trying to show me his love and getting me back)
- Loose lipped- accidentally lets things out in arguments even if they are hurtful
- Stubborn
- Witty, raunchy, teasing and supportive
- Always tells me how beautiful, stunning and sexy I am
- Puts his hand on my thigh.
- Cares about cars but doesn't care to talk about them.
- Reads novels and books
- ^ Has the same favourite books/book series and authors.
- ^ Gives our relationship a beloved quote from a classic book... i.e. "whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same"
- Controlling (especially over drinking)- not majorly though
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